It's so strange that in life, you could come across a person you'd be best friends with for a short period of time and then just because of some stupid thing, you could end up hating them for the rest of your life.
Now for me, I am a person who bears a long grudge. I still remember the people who used to bully me as a kid and I still remember what it was that they did to me. The bad thing is, I never forget such grievances. People always say, "Live and let live". Now that's something I am not able to do - don't think I've ever been able to. I suppose that's one of my negative traits.
Anyway... When I first came to this country, I figured it was like a fresh start - I left behind many things that I cared about but also many grievances and grudges that I would rather never recall or encounter again. I thought to myself as I flew halfway around the world, "Hey! I can't wait to start afresh!"
However, I couldn't bear to delete my Facebook account and start a new one. Besides being long-grieving, I have a great sense of nostalgia - I just can't let go of things that I've "worked" at or had for a long time. Having a new Facebook account meant importing all the old photos etc. It meant a lot of work. I guess I should've realized that starting afresh would mean a lot of effort.
So because I never deleted my Facebook account, I was still "in touch" with many people I no longer wanted to have anything to do with. The strange thing was how this one particular person I was good friends with for a time seemed to be stalking me. At one point I had told myself that I have had enough of seeing their update so I decided to block them from viewing my page. A couple of hours after I did that, I received a private message asking me if I had in fact blocked them. In order for them to have known that I had blocked them, they would've been religiously following every single update I posted. Strange. This person whom I've not talked to for a long time was stalking my page.
At the present moment, Facebook is my bane. I want to just delete everything and move on. I am sure many will suddenly contact me and ask me why I've "unfriended" them. That thought alone causes me a lot of anguish. I suppose I care too much what others think. I should just not care, shouldn't I?
Anyway, this is just me fleshing out my thoughts after not blogging for years. I'm sorry if this is TMI to some of my watcher. It's just that I'm so sick and tired of some people. I wish getting rid of someone who used to be a friend was easier than it really is.
PS: I'm also getting very frustrated with playing games on XBL (Xbox Live). Earlier, I was playing Halo 4 and minding my own business. I was playing terribly - this is me playing after quitting Halo 4 4 months ago - and some guy just activates his microphone to say, "Hey dude. You suck so bad. 1 kill? You suck!!!" Why do people care? So what if I've got 1 kill and 50 deaths? It's not YOUR account. So bloody what? Why are people such jerks?
Playing: Halo 4